Pamplemousse

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Saturday, June 10, 2006

Tubular (Hells) Bells

**I drafted this on Saturday and within 2 hours of drafting, I was back in the mentioned gynae ward as an emergency admission. Everything is fine but I did not get home til now( Mon. afternoon). More later**



The deed is done.

Man, that methotrexate burnt for hours after it was injected. After it was done and Mr P was hugging me on the bed, it was the only time I cried that long, long day.

I spent 8 hours in the hospital on Thursday in a ward full of women having hysterectomies, myomectomies and all other kinds of gynae procedures. Do you know that apart from when I was born and doing IVF, I have never been in hospital for anything else ever, until now? Seems that kind of luck is gone.

We learned some more on Thursday morning about our ectopic. My HCG had risen about 50% to 616 in 48 hours. There was another smaller sac in the uterus that was not of viable size. My ectopic is ovarian, rather than in the fallopian tube. This puts me in the rare 5% of all ectopics that are not fallopian.

Even more freaky is that my embryo seemed to be participating in the "I'm a Celebrity...Get Me Out Of Here" game. It had travelled in a reverse fashion from the uterus, down through the blocked (?) left tube and out onto the ovary, where it decided that was the best place to implant.

Never mind the cushy 14mm lining in the uterus.

Never mind that we could never get a fertilised egg to go in the direction nature intended ever before.

Never mind that the HSG showed that tube as blocked.

It was probably like "Dude, where's the exit???".

52 Comments:

At 5:00 PM, Blogger Jo said...

Oh geez... I am so sorry you had to go through all that. The ovary? How rare indeed.
Ectopics sometimes have a suedo-sack in uterine as well. I had the same thing happen, and the tech thought she saw a pole.. measuring 3 weeks behind pregnancy date? GAH

Feel better soon.

 
At 5:00 PM, Blogger DrSpouse said...

I read your previous post but can't remember if I commented. Anyway, even if I did, I'm still really, really sorry about this.

I've also never been in hospital for anything except the miscarriage and the day-case lap & dye.

As my gynae said, it's such a complicated process, it's a wonder it ever goes right!

 
At 5:03 PM, Blogger Thalia said...

Well, there's one of those epithets that you never really wanted applied to you. "Only woman in this country to have an ovarian ectopic in 5 years." Goes right along with "Best doubling beta ever to have turned into a failed pregnancy," or "youngest woman ever found to have premature ovarian failure"... (I was struggling for a non-fertility one but couldn't think of one. Guess i have a one-track mind right now).

As your stat counter will show I've been obsessively checking in on you, so am v relieved to hear you are back in the land of the living. Thinking of you.

 
At 5:11 PM, Blogger One Mother's Journey said...

I'm sorry this is the way things turned out. I'm thinking about you and wishing you peace.

 
At 5:35 PM, Anonymous Sarah said...

I am glad for you that the physical part is hopefully over. It is too hard to even begin to think until that part is done. I hope that you are able to take it easy and recover and grieve. Take care of yourself and I'm thinking of you.

 
At 5:35 PM, Blogger DD said...

Bad to worse just doesn't seem to capture the whole experience, does it?

And why do you have to get the be part of the 5% in the rare complications when all you asked for was to be in the 30% success?

 
At 5:38 PM, Blogger Calliope said...

glad you are home now. So sorry for what I am sure was a horrid weekend.

 
At 5:39 PM, Blogger sube said...

I'm glad to hear you're home, although it sounds like it was quite the ordeal. Take care of yourself.

 
At 6:01 PM, Blogger ninaB said...

So, you're a sort of urban legend afterall. Although it's not at all what you wanted.
I'm glad you're home and resting, and so sorry that you've had to endure all this.

 
At 6:01 PM, Blogger Allie said...

I'm so sorry you've had to go through all this drama. It is hard when your brain knows what's going on but your body hasn't caught up yet. I'll keep you in my prayers.

 
At 6:07 PM, Blogger Katie (WannaBeMom) said...

Oh God, Pamp. This sounds like about the least amount of fun ever. I've been worried about you too, but thinking about constantly. In fact Partner has even been asking about the Pamplemousse too. We're loving you from here.

 
At 6:41 PM, Blogger Sami said...

I hate that you fell on the wrong side of the statistics. I hope you are feeling better physically and that you are able to keep yourself out of the hospital. Sorry you've had so much drama. Know I'm thinking of you.

 
At 6:52 PM, Anonymous Lynnette said...

I'm glad you're home and recuperating. What a living hell. I was actually just googling rare ectopics this morning...certain that even though I don't have my tubes anymore, I must be the odd one who would have a cervical or cornual ectopic, because that's the way we fly in my house. I guess we will always have something to worry us forever, now. Take care my friend, I'm thinking of you...

 
At 6:54 PM, Blogger Coloratura said...

What's with these traveling embryos? Do they think they're on tour or something...? God, Pamplemousse, what an ordeal... sending you wishes for a speedy recovery and a hopeful Plan B, if there is one. Stay strong.

FYI, to answer your question, we went for an apartment because we're not super fond of hotels and believe it or not, don't like to eat out 24/7. So we wanted a place with a kitchen so we can switch off between eating out/in. It's a cute place, I hope it's as cute as it looks...

 
At 7:00 PM, Anonymous Jenn said...

I'm so sorry hon.

 
At 7:12 PM, Blogger Chee Chee said...

What a freakin' nightmare! I am so sorry that this is happening to you.

 
At 7:18 PM, Anonymous Kath said...

Dear Pamplemousse, how absolutely awful. I'm so sorry that you had complications to boot, and had to go back.

And I am stunned about your news. So what exactly does "blocked" mean, then?

 
At 7:26 PM, Anonymous mm said...

Geez, I knew you were special but those odds are crazy. The horror... I'm so sorry you're going through this hell.

 
At 7:26 PM, Blogger Donna said...

I hope this nightmare is now officially over and you can rest and recover.

 
At 7:43 PM, Blogger Lisa said...

I'm glad you're finally home where you belong. Take the very best care of yourself and the mister. You need to heal physically and both of you need to heal emotionally. I'm glad you have a good loving husband with you. And know that I (and many many other people) are thinking about you.

 
At 8:06 PM, Blogger amyesq said...

??? Dude, I've never even HEARD of that. So, if 5% of PG are ectopic and 5% of ectopics are ovarian, then the chances of this happening to you are .0025%. Congratulations! You have hit the shittiness jackpot!

Now please update us as to what happened after the meth injection. I am worried about you.

 
At 8:38 PM, Blogger MoMo said...

I am so sorry that you had to go through this. Please take care of yourself. I am thinking of you.

 
At 9:54 PM, Blogger Summer said...

Wow, that is some news. I'm glad to hear you are back home, and I hope you are recovering from your ordeal this weekend.

 
At 10:30 PM, Blogger Krista said...

Why is it we all seem to end up on the wrong side of the odds. Who the hell is on the right side, running those odds sky high so that none of us can reach them. So sorry to hear your situation has gotten worse, but am really glad to hear that you are all right.

 
At 10:58 PM, Blogger Lut C. said...

Sheesh, how astronomically cruel that such low odds should hit an IF woman.

 
At 11:10 PM, Blogger Avonlea said...

I've been wondering where you were - you know how some people get when some people go without posting for a while....

I agree, it's cruel and unfair that you should have had such a rare etopic, i don't get it - but what happened to send you to the hospital and how are you now? Please update soon - when you're able - you first - take care of you first.

I wish there was something I could do to make everything better for you - to undo all of this rare complication bullshit and make everything happy for you.

I wish that more than anything.

 
At 11:15 PM, Anonymous annmarie said...

Been thinking about you and checking your site 50 times a day...I'm glad you are OK. Stupid question...how are you feeling?

 
At 12:14 AM, Blogger Tazzy said...

I'm so sorry. Those words seem so little in the face of your loss. But I am so sorry. It can't make it any easier to know that it was such a rare occurance. I know it wasn't when our RE told us our loss was a genetic defect found in only something like 7% of all miscarriages. It just sucks more, somehow.

Again, so sorry. I'm so very sorry.

 
At 12:53 AM, Blogger linda said...

That is bizarre that it lodged onto your ovary. I wonder if there was a chance that it travelled up the other tube, assuming you have one, and then went to the other ovary and laid down roots? My RI said that once in a blue moon a woman with a blocked tube will wind up pregnant naturally through the other tube...somehow the egg travels through the body cavity and gets swept up by the fimbria on the other side. I wonder if this is what happened to you, but in the reverse direction, KWIM?

I am so totally sorry.

 
At 2:12 AM, Anonymous Kimmer said...

I'm so sorry about the ectopic, methotrexate sucks. I'm hoping your hospital stay wasn't because of ectopic rupture...

 
At 2:21 AM, Anonymous Beth said...

I'm glad you're home now - please take care of yourself and know you are in my thoughts.

 
At 3:22 AM, Blogger Karen said...

I'm so sorry you've been through such an ordeal from start to finish. I'm glad you're OK now and hope (am quite sure, actually) that Mr. P. is taking good care of you.

 
At 3:43 AM, Blogger moo said...

Moose aka mousse, I am so sorry. I cannot even believe that you read my updates and took the time to reach out to me. xxoo for that alone. Plus double for what you are dealing with. Know that I am thinking of you and truly truly send all my best. I am pissed at the world yet again for the unfairness of all this. moo

 
At 3:48 AM, Blogger Vacant Uterus said...

Oh my goodness, P. This is beyond unbelievable, beyond nightmarish. I'm so, so sorry for you both. My heart aches for you. Rest up, dear friend.

 
At 4:05 AM, Blogger Fertile Soul said...

Oh P, i'm so sorry. What a sad day for you. But good news in a way, you never have to think of your tubes as blocked. So there female infertility! What's up with the HSG gone wrong? What are the odds of that. Anyway, this is not the best way to receive good news, but there it is, nonetheless.

Hope you feel better soon.

 
At 6:11 AM, Blogger Emily said...

I'm so sorry.

 
At 8:34 AM, Blogger Vivien said...

I am glad to hear from you, I was worrying about you. I just can't believe how utterly crap this has turned out for you.
With odds like that, perhaps you should play the lottery?

 
At 12:29 PM, Blogger Nico said...

What a totally fucked up thing to happen. I am so sorry.

 
At 12:55 PM, Anonymous annmarie1027 said...

Thinking of you this mnorning, Ms. P....

 
At 1:20 PM, Blogger Teendoc said...

I wish I could console you with something more than, I'm so sorry. This process is utterly maddening.

After my surgery last week, one of the RE who came to see me described me as a "brave lady." I told him that I think "stubborn" is a better characterization. I keep pressing on to the end, no matter what. And you will as well.

 
At 1:26 PM, Blogger fisher queen said...

It's just cruel. I am sorry hon.

 
At 7:54 PM, Blogger Alli said...

Thinking of you. {{hugs}}

 
At 8:08 PM, Blogger Zarqa said...

This truly sucks. Hope you are doing better soon.

 
At 2:30 AM, Blogger Millie said...

First I had to stop the hysterical laughter I got from reading Avonlea's comment (about how some people get when other's don't post).

I've been thinking of you so very much. The meth is a bitch, no doubt about it. Rest up wayyyyyy more than you think you need. Then rest more. Then perhaps a tiny bit more.

Much love.

 
At 3:08 AM, Blogger Sparkle said...

Sorry to hear this has been such an ordeal. How bloody extraordinary to be in such unbelieveable stats!

Take care.

 
At 3:49 AM, Blogger Sue said...

Checking in to see how you're doing, Ms. P.

 
At 5:47 PM, Blogger zhl said...

Oh, Ms. P, I am so sorry that it all had to end this way. Hells bells, indeed. Please let us know how you are. The update has me worried.

Thinking of you.

 
At 7:50 PM, Blogger Twisted Ovaries said...

You remain my donee role model. I am sorry, P, and I am thinking of you.

 
At 11:03 PM, Anonymous T said...

Not really in the running for best weekend ever, eh? I knew you were special, but really - that takes the cake. I've been thinking of you - glad that you're home now and hope you start to feel better soon.

 
At 4:59 PM, Anonymous Manuela said...

Oh, for gawd sake. WHEN does this let UP?!

DAMN it, P... I'm so freaking irritated by it all... I'm so tired of seeing my friends suffer.

fuck.

 
At 3:24 AM, Anonymous Wavery said...

I am so sorry. What a nightmare. Hope you're hanging in there.

 
At 3:54 AM, Blogger the waiting line said...

the emergency ward under any circumstances, let alone for an ectopic pregnancy, sucks. sorry you had to go thru that.

hope you feel better soon.

 

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