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Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Move Along...Nothing To See Here

No, I have not yet POAS. I know that is what you have come here to see. No need to deny it.

I cannot do it. It is 11dp2dt and the same day that Thalia peed and got a positive but that does not comfort me. At all.

I have nothing in the way of symptoms unless poking at the boobage, examining toilet paper minutely and crying when your husband asks you if you could pack up maybe just a couple of dinner plates whilst he continues to manfully destroy the kitchen, move furniture and packs up everything else kitchen-related.

All the deliveries, bar a kickspace heater, have arrived. I can look at the boxes from the cocoon of my sofa and sniff their spicy cardboard box aroma and marvel at how so few boxes can supposedly constitute 73 items on a delivery bill.

If I am going to have an all-out, knock-down, drag-out sobbing and screeching session about a negative result, I really cannot do it on Saturday or Sunday as that is when the electrician and the plumber start to weave their Fantasia-style magic on the room formerly known as my kitchen.

Sigh.

24 Comments:

At 1:15 PM, Anonymous Lori said...

I couldn't bring myself to POAS either. But I will be hoping there is no need for a sobbing session this weekend - unless they are tears of happiness. But if it's any comfort I had a sobbing meltdown in front of the cableman once. He didn't seem to mind at all.

 
At 1:55 PM, Blogger Krista said...

I am desparately hoping there is no need for a sobbing session. Hang in there!

 
At 2:00 PM, Blogger Fertility Faux Pas said...

Okay, I'm busted. I admit it. Hoping that when you do decide to POAS that it is followed by nothing but happiness. Best of luck and thinking of you...

 
At 2:19 PM, Blogger moo said...

Hi Moose. ur, I mean mousse. :) Hang in there!!! I am so very hopeful for you, Ms. P. Forget all of the symptoms crap - we all know that doesn't mean a thing. Been there so many times. I wish you the very best !! I'll keep checking back quite rabidly looking for an update.

 
At 2:39 PM, Anonymous Kath said...

Who me? Here for news? No, I was just in the neighborhood and thought I... er... yeah.

Sobbing sessions suck. That's my piece of wisdom for the day. I hope hope hope you manage to avoid one in the most effective way possible. So hoping for you.

 
At 2:48 PM, Blogger Thalia said...

Yup, busted. Sorry. When are you going to pee on that thing then? Symptoms schmimptoms is what I say. My cramps felt EXACTLY like period cramps, but then they weren't. I don't think you can tell a damn thing from symptoms. But I know how you feel. I'm craving nausea just so I'd know I was really pregnant. I know that's unbelievably stupid, but there you go, I'm an idiot. But an idiot who is thinking about you A LOT.

Hang in there.

 
At 3:15 PM, Anonymous amanda said...

I am hoping so much for you. So very much.

 
At 3:15 PM, Blogger zhl said...

Actually, I came looking for demolition photos. Okay, no. But I tried to lie for you. I am so hoping that you have a giggling fit of joy this weekend.

 
At 3:22 PM, Blogger Anna said...

Ooooh, no - leave the pee sticks alone! Anything that shouts "NOT PREGNANT" in flashing pink neon I will have nothing to do with. (At least that's how it seemed at the time). Hang in there - I'm so hoping that your lovely donor eggs will be the ticket for you to be a parent. It worked for me, and I'm swearing by it. Ignore symptoms or lack therof. I had every symptom in the book, then had the horrible message I mentioned earlier. With the one that took, not a symptom to be found. Go figure.

When do you go for your beta? I'm so cheerleading you right now, and your embies. Just keep growing, just keep growing.... : )

 
At 3:38 PM, Blogger Karen said...

You bet that's what I came for, and I won't be denied. Go get that peestick! I'll wait right here. Or ... sigh ... I'll just come back later. To great news, I hope. Symptoms really do mean nothing at this point.

 
At 4:12 PM, Blogger Beagle said...

I had a meltdown in front of my kitchen guy as well during our reno last summer and he seemed to take it in stride. (Probably believes all women are a little over the top).

I hope you have only reason to whoop with joy.

 
At 4:31 PM, Blogger Mellie said...

As a fellow non-poas-er, I applaud your resolve and strength on holding out. And I'll repeat, the lack of typical symptoms is not a sign of anything.

So hoping the only tears you'll shed are due to overwhelming joy. I want this for you!

 
At 4:41 PM, Blogger chris said...

I admire your strenght because I'd have peed on about 50 by now.

Hang in there.

 
At 6:09 PM, Blogger Millie said...

Those sticks are just evil. You're doing the right thing, but it's killing me.

Don't worry about the lack of symptoms. That doesn't mean anything at all. Nothing. Nada.

 
At 6:09 PM, Blogger sube said...

Okay, you got me. That's exactly why I'm poking around your site today. Hoping you get good news soon.

 
At 6:18 PM, Blogger Chee Chee said...

I hope you will be getting good news in the next few days.

 
At 7:37 PM, Blogger Vacant Uterus said...

What, are you psychic or something? How did you know about my constant refreshing?

FWIW, during a time of deep sorrow, I confided in my auto repair man. He was a great comfort to me. So don't rule out the plumber and electrician just yet. You never know what sort of brownie-eating sensetive soul lurks beneath thier grimy, handyman selves.

 
At 8:08 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

i just ended the dreaded 2WW. i was scared to poas b/c i had (and still have) absolutely no symptoms (cramps, light bleeding, sore boobs). nothing. but i was to impatient and didn't want to get bad news from a person. 6 HPT tests and one beta later . . . positive. don't fret about symptoms, you can still be preggars. best to you and your hubby.

 
At 8:32 PM, Blogger Lut C. said...

At 20 euro a pop, I say no way. Think of the lovely accessories you can buy for your kitchen in stead.

I don't believe in early PG symptoms. Remind me when/if I get into the 2WW. :-)

 
At 10:34 PM, Blogger Nico said...

I'm definitely in the pee sticks are evil camp. But they can worm their way in anyway! I'm glad you've resisted so far.

I completely agree that the lack of symptoms doesn't mean jack. I am hoping so hard that there's no need for any kind of sobbing this weekend.

 
At 1:30 AM, Blogger Tazzy said...

Brave girl for not peeing on anything yet! I hope you can hold out a bit longer. And then get some good news when you do.

Lack of symptoms mean nothing. Absolutely nothing. Hang in there. (Yeah, as if you could do anything else, right?!)

 
At 2:05 AM, Blogger the waiting line said...

You're a strong woman! Keep it up.

 
At 3:35 AM, Blogger Sparkle said...

Totally agree with not peeing.

Hang in there, and don't fret about symptoms.

 
At 7:31 AM, Blogger linda said...

Oh gosh. I am guilty as charged. I came here wondering if you'd POAS yet...and you've been strong. But...you say you've had no symptoms and there you are all weepy over things. One has to wonder. ;-)

 

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