Pamplemousse

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Monday, June 05, 2006

Rip, Rig and Panic

Is this the way it ends?

4am this morning, usual pee stop and instead of the usual snowy white paper, it was streaked with brown sludge. All yesterday I was wracked with cramps, worse than period cramps.

Today more sludge every time I wipe, still dark brown. Still the cramps continue. Anything I eat seems to play havoc with my digestion, even just tea and toast.

I am a ball of fear, curled up in the fetal position. I was supposed to go to London for a wee holiday tomorrow but I have cancelled it. I am on bedrest until this resolves one way or another.

Is this the way it ends at 5w4d?

42 Comments:

At 3:09 PM, Anonymous Kath said...

Dear Pamplemousse, I am so sorry that you are going through this horribly frightening experience.

Many people spot, even bleed, in their pregnancies. But I am concerned about your bad cramping. Is there any way you can get a quick appointment with your gynecologist to have it checked out?

It may be something gastro-intestinal that is making your uterus cramp up a little, but it would be a lot better to have a doctor look at it. An ultrasound at this date would at least be able to visualize a gestational sac in the right place.

I'm sorry, cookie. A big hug.

 
At 3:17 PM, Blogger Avonlea said...

Implantation bleeding? Someone I worked with went through something similar and she had a healthy pregnancy after that and a healthy child.

I'm sorry it's happening, sorry it's scary, bedrest and a trip to the doctor sound good.

Many many hugs to you dear.

 
At 3:18 PM, Blogger DD said...

Brown blood is usually old blood. The cramping can be uterine stretching. Even in knowing that it may be nothing, it's definitely something when it's happening to you.

No harm in to taking it easy for a couple of days, but to call your doctor so they can document the situation would be helpful for all concerned.

 
At 3:21 PM, Blogger EJW said...

Definitely take it easy and have the doctor take a look. I hope this is just a scary moment.

 
At 3:25 PM, Blogger art-sweet said...

Now I really wish your vag could talk and tell you:

"P. honey, have a mocktail. This whole cramping spotting business - I'm just playin' with ya. Why should I cut out the monkey business just because you managed to get me knocked up?"

I hope that's the case. I really do. Keeping everything crossed for you.

 
At 3:49 PM, Blogger MoMo said...

I am not an expert so I won't give you any assvice. I hope the bleeding/brown stuff stopped and I think being on bedrest will help. Hang in there!

 
At 4:04 PM, Blogger DrSpouse said...

I can't stop you from panicking, but I have always been told bleeding is not necessarily bad, neither is cramping, but see the doctor... especially if you can feel it in your shoulders.

 
At 4:04 PM, Anonymous Jenn said...

*hugs*

I hope it's nothing.

 
At 4:21 PM, Blogger chris said...

The only time I've ever bled was with my son. I bled until 14 weeks. It was crazy at first, but I got used to it and was naive enough that when my doctor told me it was normal for some women, I didn't worry about it. And really, he's right. Some women have some spotting.

It's going to be fine.

Also, did you have a beta and I missed it.

Hang in there, dear.

 
At 5:32 PM, Anonymous becky said...

hi, usually lurk but wanted to tell you that i had brown sludge and cramping off and on between 6 and 8 weeks and was totally terrified and the result is now 5 months old and currently fast asleep on my knee. i am not a doctor but at the time my ob said brown blood is better than red because it's old blood. fingers crossed for you.

 
At 5:39 PM, Blogger Calliope said...

thinking about you.

 
At 6:12 PM, Anonymous Jan said...

De-lurking to say how sorry I am you're going through this! I can only back up what DD said, that brown blood is old blood and that it's often not in itself a cause of worry - sometimes just implantation bleed or a bleed from elsewhere in the womb. And even red blood and cramping does not mean a certain end - my best friend bled more than a period's-worth and with cramps to go with and now has a two year-old. I know that positive stories are no guarantee, but I do hope that your story becomes one of these positive stories that others will be told in times of stress. Don't know where you are in Scotland, and you'll probably know this yourself anyway, but there may well be an early pregnancy unit at your local hospital (there's definitely one in Edinburgh) where you could walk in without an appointment and they would take bloods and maybe scan you for reassurance. Good luck!!

 
At 6:57 PM, Blogger soralis said...

I am sorry that you are going through all of this but I am hoping that all it well.

Take care and I am crossing my fingers for you.

 
At 7:19 PM, Blogger Alli said...

Brown is old, right? Have you called your doctor? This sucks - I'm praying for you.

 
At 7:33 PM, Blogger Millie said...

I tried to leave a comment earlier but blogger wasn't playing nice.

Thinking so much of you and hoping you get to see a doc/get some info/good news/whatever v v soon.

Hoping that is just your little one burrowing deeper in and the beginnings of round ligament pain.

 
At 9:24 PM, Blogger Sarah said...

I do know exactly how you feel because I went through it on Wednesday, blood, cramps and all. It is a terrifying feeling seeing blood/brown spotting and is enough to send one into hysterics. I hope that everything is OK. Hang in there and take care.

 
At 9:32 PM, Anonymous pixi said...

Spotting, even significant spotting, does not always signify the end. I hope that's true this time.

But I know any spotting can turn you into an emotional wreck. I'm praying that things are OK, and that you'll get some reassuring news/signs soon.

 
At 9:37 PM, Blogger Jo said...

Praying that you will be fine.
Hoping you can get the reassurance you need from a doctor.

 
At 10:04 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thinking of you. Lots.

Alchemilla

 
At 10:20 PM, Blogger Angie said...

Hoping this is all nothing and please get feeling better. Maybe a good movie cuddled up on the couch? My best to you!

 
At 10:36 PM, Blogger Lut C. said...

Wishing you the best.

 
At 11:45 PM, Blogger zhl said...

Been trying to post all day. Hope you are doing okay. Hope it's just the scary, everything-is-still-okay pregnancy bleeding. And hope you were able to get in to see a doctor.

Still hoping all the best for you.

 
At 12:08 AM, Blogger ninaB said...

were you able to get an appointment to have this checked out? hopefully it's nothing. like the others said, brown blood is old and, apparently, usually nothing to worry about. take care.

 
At 12:36 AM, Anonymous annmarie said...

Ms. P, I like the appointment idea...harass the doctor and get this checked out...if anything just for peace of mind...then tell us what's going on because we care about you and want this to be a success.

 
At 12:51 AM, Blogger Ova Girl said...

Oh dear this sounds very scary indeed. I'm so sorry. Some very wise comments above, I'm hoping they give you comfort and in the meantime am hoping that things have settled down and all is ok.

 
At 1:55 AM, Blogger Ornery said...

I'm so sorry that you are going through such a scare. I had a few days of bleeding around 6 weeks, and it was absolutely terrifying. As others have already said, brown is usually a sign of old blood. I am thinking of you, and so hope everything continues to go well with your pregnancy.

 
At 3:51 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry you're having to go through this. I don't know if these stories are helping, but on the off chance they are here's mine. I spotted for ages with my successful pregnancy -- it started about where you are and continued off and on well into the second trimester. It was always brown and sludgy, like bad chocolate milk, and occasionally pink. Never ceased to freak me out either, and I hadn't been through half of what you've been through. I can't tell you how much I hope for you.

-Shelley

 
At 4:14 AM, Blogger the waiting line said...

Sorry you're going through this.

Thinking of you.

 
At 5:16 AM, Anonymous Sassy said...

How horrible. I hope it stops soon and everything turns out alright. I'm thinking of you.

 
At 5:19 AM, Blogger tracey said...

I had the same type of bleeding and cramping with my DE cycle. It was all okay, though terrifying. I know someone else said it, but brown blood is old blood - probably hung up from the transfer (they did put a catheter through your cervix after all) and is just now getting pushed out.

I'd tell you not to worry, but I know its impossible not to. Hang in there. I'm sorry you're going through this.

Tracey

 
At 5:48 AM, Blogger tonya said...

You are in my thoughts. In case it helps at all (I know how utterly terrifying it can be), I had brown smudging at four different points during the first trimester and all continues okay. Everything crossed for you and hoping this episode quickly and uneventfully passes.

 
At 6:39 AM, Blogger amyesq said...

Brown blood = OK. Please try to relax (I know, stupid to say) and hang in there. I will be thinking good thoughts for you, my dear.

 
At 8:59 AM, Anonymous Pygmalion's Wife said...

Just so you know--I had HORRID cramps and brown blood off and on from the fifth to seventh weeks of my second pregnancy, and the fifth to EIGHTH weeks of my third (and that time there was red blood, too--so much that I had to wear a pad). Both times the pregnancy ended with a live baby. This might be NOTHING. Call your OB and insist that they do an ultrasound.

 
At 10:08 AM, Blogger Sparkle said...

Oh my god this is terrifying.

I hope you are the same as PW above.

Hoping it's just old-blood and nothing more.

 
At 12:11 PM, Blogger Vacant Uterus said...

Oh no, P.! I hope it is nothing and that it stops soon. Can you see a doctor any time soon? How awful!

 
At 12:34 PM, Blogger Thalia said...

I know it's shit. It's not a good sign, but it isn't necessarily the end. Most IVF pregnancies have some bleeding. It's just fing terrifying when it happens.

I hope that you've called the doctor, and I hope that the bleeding has slowed or stopped. I want you to have all my hope.

 
At 1:20 PM, Blogger fisher queen said...

Just as everyone else has said, this could be completely normal. The cramping could be normal too- I had cramps, pretty bad ones, for the first several weeks, and still do off and on. Call your doc and hang in there!

 
At 1:50 PM, Blogger Vivien said...

Oh no, poor you, I really can't add much to the above, but thinking of you and crossing my fingers VERY HARD.

 
At 2:17 PM, Anonymous T said...

Oh no!! Brown blood is old blood, but I hope you've gotten checked out to make sure and give you some peace of mind.

Thinking of you my friend.

 
At 4:11 PM, Anonymous amanda said...

I really, really hope that everything is ok. You're in my thoughts.

 
At 5:03 PM, Blogger JennaM said...

I vote for implantation bleeding, too. Which is not to say you have no right to be totally terrified and grossed out.

I hope it stops soon. Wishing you all good things--on the double.

xoxo
Jenna

 
At 5:05 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am 7 weeks preg. and have had bad cramps since week 5. Started spotting brown with some mucus stuff also. Went to er and everything was ok, although they put me on bed rest- no work, no driving, nothing. Good Luck

 

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