Can I Have an E for Ectopic, Please Bob?
After another day yesterday of bad cramps and brown sludge, I called the clinic this morning and they hauled me right in for bloodwork and a scan.
Funny how they can do HCG bloodwork lickety-split at a time like this, eh?
HCG is 482. They do not know if that is on the way up or down.
There was a lovely little embryo cosily snuggled in by my left tube (the blocked one).
More bloodwork Thursday AM and then methotrexate Thursday PM.
Like Thalia, I am to continue the hormones until then. It seems a lot like shutting the barn door after the horse has bolted.
5w5d and it is all over. Thank you for all your kind words to my previous post.
PS. Anyone notice the date? Shiver.
posted by Pamplemousse @ 6:25 PM
90 Comments:
Oh God, no, Pamplemousse. I'm so utterly sorry.
FUCK.
so sorry -- I am so sorry.
Ah shit. That is just absolute rottenness. I was so sure that this was going to be ok for you, that my luck had deserted me but that I could instead project it in your direction. Perhaps my luck is just anti-luck, instead. Yeah, that's probably it.
I'm so sorry my friend. Want to reschedule your trip down south and we can go get trashed together?
I'm so sorry. I wish this weren't how it went.
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No... no... NOOO!! FUCK! FUCK!
You know... when I read Thalia's news, at first I was sad and then I quickly became angry. With you... I bypassed sad completely. I just can't STAND to see all of us go through this SHIT again and again... it's so... so... randomly CRUEL.
P... when I stop shaking my fist at the universe on your behalf... the sadness will once again return to my heart... and I will definitely be thinking of you...
No!!! The unfairness is astounding. I am so very sorry. You are in my thoughts.
I don't comment very often, but can I just say FUCK for you. WTF is wrong with the universe.
I'm so sorry, fuck.
LEB
I'm so sorry. I'm praying for you. :(
Oh, no P, i really thought this was going to work. I cant believe this is happening to you and Thalia. I'm sorry.
It must be the evil, evil day. I got shit news myself. I'm so sorry this has happened to you.
Oh, God. I am absolutely crushed for you.
I'm so sorry. I'll be thinking of you.
This truly is a day from Hell.
Damn it, I really wish this weren't happening to you. I'm really sorry, P. It just sucks so much.
Goddammit! I'm sorry.
There are just no words to adequately express the horrible unfairness of it all. I'm so, so sorry.
Bastard nutfuck. I'm so dreadfully sorry P, I so wanted this to be it for you.
I'm so so sorry. It's not fair. *hugs*
I am just heartsick for you and your family. I am so sorry.
Oh CRAP. CRAPPITY CRAP CRAP.
NO FUCKING FAIR.
I'm so sorry, Pamplemousse. So god damn sorry.
I guess when the universe is on a roll, it's just doesn't want to stop, does it?
Thinking of you...
Oh no, P! I'm so, SO sorry. My thoughts, like everyone else's on here, are with you and Mr. P. I know that means little at a time like this, but I hope it helps just a smidge.
Oh Pamps o'mine. What I can do but tell you how much this is the shit. And I'm crying with you. And okay, okay, I've never met you but I feel like your my blood sister, and I just can't even express how much I think this sucks. I want to scream. All my love. You know that.
Oh no nononono NO! This is just so wrong and I'm so very very sorry. I'm thinking of you and the Mister and my heart is breaking.
Oh, P. I am so, so sorry. I just can't understand why all this is happening, the date notwithstanding.
Thinking of you, and after crying into my cereal with Thalia's news, am now crying into my afternoon tea over yours.
Please try to be easy on yourself.
Hi. I lurk here frequently, but rarely post. This shitty news just made me want to speak up and add my "Fuck!! I'm sorry" to the chorus. This is just awful news ... thinking of you.
I'm so sorry, this is terrible. Thinking of you.
I'm so terribly sorry. None of this makes any sense and it all sucks so badly.
I'm thinking of you.
Damn them for making you and Thalia wait! This is just not fair, not right, on so many levels. My heart is broken for you.
I've been trying to post on your blog for two days, but blogger has only just now decided to let me say anything... In any case, FUCK. I'm so, so sorry. This is unbelievably unfair.
And again, I am SO SORRY. I wish better for you.
I'm so sorry.
I'm in tears. I'm sorry, fuck, triple fuck. I can't stop shaking my head and crying.
Ms. P. I am so sorry you have to go through this. I just don't get it. I just don't understand this shit. I am so sorry.
I'm with Millie, PLEASE don't wait until Thursday. Get that tube outta there. We want to keep you around.
Huge hugs, I know how hard ectopics are,
Kate
I'm so incredibly sorry my friend.
"it seems so unfair
I want to cry"
Bloody fucking, fucking hell! I'm so sorry P.
The symptoms of my ectopic mirror yours exactly, and mine was treated with methotrexate too. Please email me if you want to talk about it.
No. No, no, no.
NO,
--Bugs
Sorry about this turn of events, it's just revolting.
Take care.
I am so sorry. Ectopics suck so much. I know, I had two. Both treated with two shots of meth a piece, and both still ruptured and ended up as emergency surgeries.
Promise me that if you so much as feel like you have to fart that you will get to the Emergency Room, even if you have no external bleeding. Ruptured ectopics can be acute or they can be slow. They can be very painful or just a tad uncomfortable. They can have tons of bleeding or none at all (that you can see anyway). But either way they can be totally fatal, so please DO NOT go anywhere far away from an ER. If you have even a remote feeling that something is really wrong, get to that ER. And if you feel like you have gas, are constipated, or have any kind of abdominal cramps -- GO TO THE ER!
Be careful.
Hoping for you.... And so very sorry this has happened.
Oh no Pamplemousse. I'm so sorry. Thinking of you.
I am so sorry, Ms. P. This fucking sucks.
That is just royally shitty. I am so sorry you're going through it.
I wish there was something I could say or do to help, but there just isn't and I'm so sorry.
It's just not fair....
Goddamn it...what is wrong in the universe? I'm so unbelievably sad for you right now. So so sorry...
Oh, that's just horrible. Worse than horrible. Can't imagine how you must feel.
I'm so sorry. Please be careful and take Millie and Susan's advice.
Bonnie.
Oh no. I'm so sorry. I hope your okay. I'm thinking of you.
I am so very sorry. It is all so unfair.
Much love to you
Tertia
I'm so very sorry.
Oh, P. I'm so awfully sorry. I wish this weren't happening to you.
I wanted this to work, for you and also for me, for a sense of fairness and due and happiness deserved.
I know you wanted it even more.
Adding my misery and empathy to the steaming pile.
I have no idea what to say, but I never thought I could be so upset for someone I have never even met.
I'll have a b for bollocks, Bob, I think and confuse our American friends at least.
I am so, so sorry.
I've been thinking of you since I read your last post and I was hoping so hard that it wasn't going to end this way. I am so sorry. This is just not fair--it makes me so angry! Please take care of yourself and know that we are here for you.
Oh, P. I'm so sorry.
Oh no! I'm so very very sorry!
I'm so sorry. That's horrible... and so unfair.
Oh no, no, no. I'm so sorry, Pamplemousse. This is SO unfair. Please take good care of yourself. Thinking of you...
Oh FUCK. Motherfuck. I am so sorry. I know that words mean jack shit right now, but please know that I'm thinking of you......it's just so fucking unfair.....
I did not post yesterday because sorry seems so very inadequate. But that is all I have. You don't know me. I have never met you. And I am so very, very sorry.
I am so, so sorry. This is so unbelievably fucked up.
There is nothing that I can say that will be at all meaningful for you except that I send a big hug and lots of love to try to get through this incredibly difficult time. It is horrible to have to go through and life just sucks right now.
I am so so sorry.
Oh no you too....I just got here after reading Thalia. I am so sorry. Oh the disappointment. My heart goes out to you. Take care of yourself and know that I am thinking of you.
Well, that sucks beyond belief. I am sorrier than words could ever express.
Jesus f'ing Christ. WHY!!!
I am so sorry dear Pamplemousse. It should not have turned out like this. I can barely stand it.
motherfuck. I'm so sorry.
None of this makes any sense at all. It's just outrageously wrong, and I am so sorry you have to endure it.
I just wanted to say you're still very much in my thoughts I hope all goes well on Thursday - as well as it can.
Oh P! I am so sorry...it seems like such an inadequate thing to say.
What the f*ck is wrong with this universe?
crap. fucking crap. pamplemousse, i am so sorry. i am, however, extremely grateful that you are closely and carefully monitored and that an ectopic can be dealt with promptly. i wish you strength. you will be ok.
I'm very sorry, my dear. Take care of yourself...
So, so sorry. Take good care of yourself.
Dangit... I'm so sorry to hear this news. I had feared another ectopic when I went for my scan... I hope the methotrexate treats you kindly and does the trick quickly and efficiently. Again I am so so very sorry. This truly stinks.
Fucking hell. Just...take care of yourself, okay?
I can't believe this. How freakin' awful! Oh hon, I am so sorry.
You don't know me from Adam but I am so sorry you lost your baby. Too much sadness abounds these days, too much sadness. Life isn't abt fairness but this seems a bit too much as well.
I hope you're hanging in there sweetie.
Oh this is just downright wrong. I am so sorry. I don't know what to say. My heart is breaking for you.
I'm terribly sorry.
Oh no, I am so very sorry. I am thinking of you.
oh no. I am so so sorry for your loss. It just doesn't make sense at all.
Will be thinking of you...
I am so sorry this happened. IF is so hard already without additional loss. My heart goes out to you.
Oh no...I am so sorry to read this...I am thinking of you and wishing you strength.
I am so very sorry. This is friggin' unfair.
Fuck. I cannot express how pissed I am. I am so sorry Ms. Moose. I am so so sorry.
Pample, I am so so so sorry. I will continue to think and pray for you sweetie. :-(
Just checking to see how you're doing, Ms. P., and to let you know I'm thinking of you.
Just checking in to see how you are - thinking of you.
I had not been here a while. I am so sorry Pampelmouse, I had so much hope for you. This really sucks! How can these things happen?I don't get it.
I am so terribly sorry.
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