No Chocolate Eggs For Me* (Updated)
As I sit here and and a hot flash roils over my body, I sigh and think of how much I would love some chocolate. I seem to have traded the headaches for the hot flashes this weekend. I am not sure which is worse.
Actually, what is worse is knowing that my sweet donor is suffering much, much worse than I. At least, with an anonymous egg donor, you do not know what is happening with them and can only remotely worry. I can worry firsthand on the phone as she relates her constant hot flashes, nausea, dizziness and fatigue. I feel bad. So bad.
She is dealing with it like a trooper whilst I can only cry. I keep telling her that she has had 2 children so she can survive anything.
Me? I am an old crone and have been proven to survive everything since the dawn of time, as long as I can cry at the same time too.
* I am a Type 2 diabetic and therefore no chocolate eggs = stable blood sugar.
Lots of variables in this cycle are outwith my control but this is the one thing that is my complete responsibility. But I would love to be cramming my face with Cadbury's Creme Eggs right this minute. Instead, my Easter pudding was custard (made with skim milk and a little Splenda) and prunes. Deep joy.
posted by Pamplemousse @ 2:38 PM
21 Comments:
I'm sorry that both of you are suffering hormone side effects. I wish I had a magic wand and could wisk them away.
I'm very sorry that you can't indulge in some chocolate - now when you need it the most (why?) what about hot cocoa? Some other alternative?
I really believe you're going to make it, hang in there!
I'm sorry you're so uncomfortable! Please don't apologize to your donor! Sure, she's struggling through the hormone fluctuations too, but she's got the 2 kids there as a reminder of how fulfilling this process can be. Remember that you've been through hell and have paid your dues...She's probably sitting on her couch right now thinking about you. You're a strong woman and you will get through this. And if you have to shed a tear in the process, so be it. I'm proud of you and admire your efforts to be mom.
I'm so sorry you're feeling so grotty, and your donor too. Why oh why no chocolate? Tell me it isn't true...
It's an amazing relationship you and your donor have. Even if you are currently both suffering, I hope you will both soon be celebrating.
What about chocolate milk?
No chocolate? What madness is that?? And at such a crucial time no less.
Sorry to hear you and your donor are feeling those nasty side effects.
You are no old crone! I am so sorry that you and your donor are suffering so.
Try to hang in there.
you are compassionate to worry so much about your donor - i admire her for doing what she's doing and i admire you for being so grateful and human. hang in there and ... yeah, why no chokky?
I agree with Millie... have a little chocolate, it's in the Donor Recipient's Bill of Rights, I believe... :)
Seriously, hope tomorrow (whenever that is for you) finds you feeling a wee bit better and one day sooner to being done with cycling and on to babydom. I wish you so much luck.
Hope you're feeling better. It's so unfair that we have to go through all this science to have a baby, but "they" tell me it's worth it! Hang in there and keep us posted.
Ah, darlin'... you know what I wish right now... that I could somehow arrange a meeting of all of my infertile pals who are really suffering right now... my thoughts are with you, love. And if you ever want to chat... just email the word!
I can't imagine not being able to have chocolate...and combined with hotflashes...unbearable.
It is so strange how cycles can vary for a woman. Mine, too, is off to a strange start.
Poor both of you! At least you can commiserate with each other and be absolute whingers without holding back on the whinginess. Let's hope there's no more of this madness ever again because there'll be a baby on the way soon!
Oh . . . crappy-ity-crap! They need to find an easier way to do this IVF thing. I am so sorry that you and donor are feeling the pain.
(I'm also sorry for mentioning the C. word so often!)
Good for you having the discipline to take care of your body. I have three diabetics in the family. I'm proud of you for resisting all temptation during this crazy time!
My thoughts are with you.
Keep on crying if that's what gets you through it all!
oh, I wish I'd known that before I started prescribing chocolate... I'm a ninny!
well, you get extra points for being a conscientious woman who is taking care of herself so that she can have a baby.
of course, if you were a crack whore, you wouldn't get the points, but you'd have 4 children by now, with one on the way... ;/
I hear ya, sista! They're killing me, too...Doesn't help that it 92 degrees F here, while I'm packing...I'm really excited that your cycle is beginning. If I get to busy to write, its not because I'm not thinking good thoughts for you. GL!
Chocolate is so overrated. Don't worry about it. I am waiting and hoping for you. The time is getting closer. Your donor is a trooper! Whoo Hoo!
But sweetie, haven't you discovered diabetic chocolate? It's a beautiful thing. If there is none there, you'll just have to fly over for a visit so I can give you some.
(I keep looking for ways of enticing you over - since I can't afford it myself LOL)
Sorry the side effects are so horrid, same for your donor. Somehow it does seem worse - we expect to feel the pain because of what we've been through ...
Take care - you must be getting to the business end of this cycle soon?
I love the Cadbury's creme eggs too! But haven't found any in the stores this year. Not that I've looked that hard, they're deadly!
I'm sorry you couldn't indulge, but you are getting closer and closer every day to a much better possibility :-)
I like Avonlea's idea...perhaps some diabetic chocolate would help you indulge in your craving?
I'm so sorry that you and your donor are experiencing these side effects. You both sound like such strong, amazing women. I hope the side effects start to subside soon.
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