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Monday, April 18, 2005

Bloating along..singing this song

Day 4 of stims and day whatevah of downregging. I have given up forever the notion of breathing through my nose again in this lifetime. Between the Synarel nose spray and the sodium benzoate in the beta blockers, my nasal membranes are truly like chopped liver. The snoring at night isn't bothering me though hahhaha!

My first follie check is tomorrow. It has been a full year since my last injectibles cycle but the dread of the follie check has not dissipated. You probably think whats the deal?

I did 6 Gonal-f cycles, of which only 4 staggered to trigger and 2 were cancelled due to poor response. The 4 that just made it to trigger were only ever 1 follie and out of those 4, 3 cycles were on the bad tube side. Yeah, yeah, I heard the peptalk from the nurse that your tube waggles over to the other side and can suck the egg over. Yeah, right!!

I am thinking I need to find some of that Pollyanna attitude to keep me going. Not too much cos then I go too far over the other way and start thinking maybe this time, my ovaries will respond. Unfortunately I then want to kill myself when they don't.

I think it is time for some light horrorscope reading and a little decaff meditation.


At 9:41 PM, Anonymous amanda said...

Good luck tomorrow!

At 10:08 PM, Blogger amyesq said...

Good luck! Let us know how it goes.

At 10:09 PM, Anonymous Jenn said...

good luck!

At 12:30 AM, Blogger TK said...

Good luck tomorrow, "grow follies grow" and all that other stupid forum crap :-)

At 5:04 PM, Blogger ankaisa said...

I hated Synarel, too! Made my nose itch. And it is so hard to find that way between not being too optimistic/pessimistic. I'm still trying to find it. I hope those ovaries surprise you tomorrow!!

At 1:37 AM, Blogger Internal Spring said...

I know the non-breathing thing all too well - acupuncture really helps.

Won't give you Pollyanna, but cautious optimism - your body may surprise you.

Wishing you quickly through the waiting room and results you can cope with or get excited about - sorry Pollyanna creeped in.

At 4:18 AM, Blogger MC said...

Good luck with the scan. I know the feeling of not wanting to get too positive and then falling hard. I actually have been doing a few sessions with a hypnotherapist,it's not everyone's cup of tea, but at least it helps me relax.
Take care.

At 6:29 AM, Blogger Millie said...

Hoping all went well and you have some lovely follies on your best side.

My nose is itching just from the Synarel talk.


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