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Saturday, September 22, 2007

Here I Go Again

I woke up this morning, feeling like somebody had punched me in the stomach.

It had been presaged by the brown sludge and spotting last night.

Yes, today is CD1 and depot lupron day. Come on down, Madame Menopausal.

I totally fudged up the injection as it has been over a year since I tangled with the business end of a syringe. Why, oh why does the Ginecrin come with Spanish instructions only? My schoolgirl Spanish is creaky enough without the added pressure of doing a shot right NOW!!!!

However, it is done and thankfully I only have 7 days to endure the worst before the sweet, sweet estrogen starts.

I had the whole pharmacopoeia of drugs out of the wardrobe, counting and checking what was there. The PIO, the prog pessaries, the estrogen tablets, the valium, the 5mg folic acid tablets, the baby aspirin. The only things I am missing are antibiotics but they did not seem to make much difference last time so what the heck.

Of course, these are in addition to the usual suspects of the daily Metformin, Methyldopa, Armour thyroid and Prozac. And the vitamins. I am not sure if I have enough suitcases ;)

Without a backward glance of regret, I binned some totally out-of-date Gonal-f and Menopur as I will never use them again, even if they had been within date. I had been hanging onto these, just for the sake of it and occasionally offered them out to people cycling but the time had come.

I do like to hang onto the thousands of spare needles as you never know when you might need to do a DIY tattoo or create a collage or litter them round your house so you can seem totally cool to your 18 year-old godson and he will think we are doing bad drugs.

OK, maybe not.

Apparently, egg collection from my donor will be around October 14th. Totally makes me hoot as that was never a given with me. Maybe someone should have shouted "Giant Clue - DE!!!" to me back then. Or maybe I just liked playing Russian Roulette with my ovaries.

No motto for today.

Tomorrow my motto will probably be Fuck Right Off but we shall see.

PS. the spell check wants to change folic to frolic.

Ha!! Yeah right. As if. Do I look like I am in the mood for a frolic???


At 1:38 AM, Anonymous pixi said...

Hoping very very hard for you, P.

At 3:09 AM, Blogger Beagle said...

God, I could use some frolic acid and some valium too.

Good Luck P, the very very best of luck!

At 4:04 AM, Anonymous orodemniades said...

Dude, that is one hefty regimen. But at least you still have the, uh, joy of, that doesn't sound right, never mind.

Good luck!!

At 5:58 AM, Blogger tonya said...

My dad used to call the Folgard his "frolicing acid".

I am holding a positive thought for you with this cycle, and hoping that you get the best news possible in another month's time!

At 1:29 PM, Anonymous amanda said...

Good luck! I've got everything crossed for you.

At 2:58 PM, Blogger Katie said...

I've been watching for updates! When do you leave? I'm with you in spirit.

At 5:48 PM, Blogger Roni said...

On your way! I am praying this is the one for you, Ms. P.

At 7:30 PM, Blogger daisychain said...

Ah, the IVF drug supply. I know it well. Only to be rivaled by drug peddlers. I wasn't around when you were in the process last time but I back tracked through your blog. BEST of luck. I will be checking everyday to see how you are doing.

At 7:40 PM, Blogger Lut C. said...

Doesn't the word acid alone hint at wild parties etc. :-)

At 9:35 PM, Anonymous Flicka said...

Girl, you make me laugh! Good luck with the donor cycle. I'm pulling so hard for you.

At 1:58 AM, Anonymous Lynnette said...

I thought the same thing about the Spanish instructions! I didn't open up the damn box until the time was upon me. Good thing it was illustrated and I knew what "leche" meant...and uh, I DO have a collage with syringes on it. Typepad never would recognize my jpegs for my infertility art, though, so sadly, the rest of the world does not get to share in my Bachelor of Fine Art angst...alas. (the pic on my homepage is a 3-D collage) You know I am pulling for you. Yay! for last period before the twins come! Hey, it happens. February 21, 2006. (read the newer post, and sorry about your crappier CD2)

At 2:58 AM, Blogger moo said...

I KNOW this is the one, Ms. P. I am so happy that you are on the way. xxMoo

At 3:33 PM, Anonymous Joy said...

Frolic Acid! I am rolling in the earthy whimsy of it like a dog in poop. I am retrieving, in the bystanderish way of DE, October 15th-week as well, so here's hoping good things for both of us.
Frolic Assed Joy


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