Here I Go Again

I woke up this morning, feeling like somebody had punched me in the stomach.

It had been presaged by the brown sludge and spotting last night.

Yes, today is CD1 and depot lupron day. Come on down, Madame Menopausal.

I totally fudged up the injection as it has been over a year since I tangled with the business end of a syringe. Why, oh why does the Ginecrin come with Spanish instructions only? My schoolgirl Spanish is creaky enough without the added pressure of doing a shot right NOW!!!!

However, it is done and thankfully I only have 7 days to endure the worst before the sweet, sweet estrogen starts.

I had the whole pharmacopoeia of drugs out of the wardrobe, counting and checking what was there. The PIO, the prog pessaries, the estrogen tablets, the valium, the 5mg folic acid tablets, the baby aspirin. The only things I am missing are antibiotics but they did not seem to make much difference last time so what the heck.

Of course, these are in addition to the usual suspects of the daily Metformin, Methyldopa, Armour thyroid and Prozac. And the vitamins. I am not sure if I have enough suitcases ;)

Without a backward glance of regret, I binned some totally out-of-date Gonal-f and Menopur as I will never use them again, even if they had been within date. I had been hanging onto these, just for the sake of it and occasionally offered them out to people cycling but the time had come.

I do like to hang onto the thousands of spare needles as you never know when you might need to do a DIY tattoo or create a collage or litter them round your house so you can seem totally cool to your 18 year-old godson and he will think we are doing bad drugs.

OK, maybe not.

Apparently, egg collection from my donor will be around October 14th. Totally makes me hoot as that was never a given with me. Maybe someone should have shouted "Giant Clue - DE!!!" to me back then. Or maybe I just liked playing Russian Roulette with my ovaries.

No Regrets....my motto for today.

Tomorrow my motto will probably be Fuck Right Off but we shall see.

PS. the spell check wants to change folic to frolic.

Ha!! Yeah right. As if. Do I look like I am in the mood for a frolic???